Through the interwebs, I like to portray myself as the model mom – tough, fit, patient, loving, dedicated, motivated, and passionate. In fact, if you follow me on Facebook, you’ll often see me giving out positive encouragement, especially on dreaded Mondays. I’m a firm believer that we are in charge of our own attitude, and therefore in charge of who we are, how we are perceived and the impact we have on those around us.
As I always say… choose joy.
But it’s not always peaches and cream here in the Ladewski household. There are struggles and obstacles that bring me down and I’m not the SuperMom everyone thinks I am.
My patience is worn thin after a long and busy day at work.
I compare myself to other people – fitness professionals, writers and friends.
|I was frazzled on this day.|
I beat myself up over mistakes.
I’m angry that everyone else around me seems to catch all the big breaks.
I’m saying “No, kids, don’t bother me – I have work to do.”
I need just 2 extra hours in the day.
I snap judgement before I know the whole story.
I complain about what others have and why I can’t seem to get there.
What am I doing wrong? Am I not working hard enough?
My kids keep fighting. I’m losing patience.
I’ve realized that there’s nothing wrong with working hard and trying to achieve goals and dreams you have for yourself. But when it’s at the expense of the most important things in my life, then something needs to change.
I’ve been working diligently at my job and also on a project that I’m excited about. I sit down to answer emails and write and that’s the exact moment that my daughter wants to do a craft project or my son wants to do puzzles.
I also noticed that my kids have been bored, crabby and fighting more. Which makes my work time much harder and much more frustrating. Asking my son to bring his puzzles by my computer so I could help him and finish my emails doesn’t seem to be working.
I wasn’t giving them the attention – the focused attention – they needed. While I was doing puzzles, I was thinking about emails and work. While I was doing work, I felt guilty for not spending time with my family. I love to multi-task… it makes me feel like I’m getting lots of things done. When in reality, I’m getting less done because my mind is in five different places at once.
|Enjoy the moments|
I’m passionate about helping people reach their fitness goals. I’m passionate about my own work and clients, Girls Gone Strong, my daily job running Parisi, and growing my business to educate more and more people. But I’m even more passionate about my family and giving my kids the love and attention they need.